Wings Of A Dove

"Don't Think for a Moment

Of Looking down

Wowow Wings of a Dove"

Wings Of A Dove

By Madness

Been a while since I've written anything. We have the CST at school. Two weeks, can you believe it? Yeah, I can't.

Yesterday I found I got into the lowest choir of highschool. Sure, that ain't so bad. But I've been in the highest choir since last year. Two years and I feel like I'm not up to my potential, neither to all my musically-bright friends. Which is about... Well 90 percent of them. So they've urged me to try-out once more. I don't know if that will change anything, but I hope it does. I'm emailing the teacher tomorrow, wish me luck! I'll be fine even if I do stay where I am. I've got friends in that choir anyways, it'll be a good year no matter what.

Why does this apply to psycology? Well, let me tell you. When I heard the news, I was in shock. Well, not really. I did horrid at my audition. I was sick, and oh it was just a horrible off-pitch day.

CONTINUING

So I wanted to cry.

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

Well, let me tell you dear reader. It means I've switched personalities once more. (Did I explain my switching of personalities? Hum. I'll explain again.)

I've changed my personality from ENFP to ENTP through out my life a few times. This year, I'm leaning more back to ENFP (Which I must say, I dislike being and F. Too much drama comes with it. As you have noticed in my posts.) and I'm wondering if the whole switching thing is going to happen during my whole life. Or if this is just a hormonic teenage thing. I don't really know, but when I do you'll be the second to know.

Me, being the first.

So recap:

THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ENFP AND ENTP:

ENFP: Outgoing, argumentive, emotional, and messy (not on time)

ENTP: Outgoing, argumentive, not-as-emotional (rarely emotional), and messy

So I'm getting a bit more emotional, but like I said, it tends to happen during that time of month. Aren't females just awesome! We get to bleed out of our V's. Fun. I'm not going to say the whole thing just in case some people are sensitve to these things. So there you go.

"Jam yesterday, Jam tomorrow, but no Jam to-day."

That was my statement last time I posted. (I think I'll do this a weekly thing.)

 The meaning of this statement is that:

When you think about yesterday, you think of good things. When you think of tomorrow you think great things too. But when today rolls around, you get what you get. So in memory and in theory you will always have a good thing to think about. Like remembering last year's school days are great, and tomorrow's day will be great. But when you really think about today, nothing great happened, but you'll somehow remember it as great.

I hope that makes sense. It made sense in my mind.

THE NEXT QUESTION FOR THE WEEK:

If a person's been deaf all their life, what language do they think in the head?

I have a pretty good answer, but enlighten me.

And All That Jazz.

Violet Hill

"I took my love down to Violet Hill
And we sat in the slow
And all that time she was silent still
If you love me won't you let me know
If you love me won't you let me know."

Violet Hill
By Coldplay


I'm posting two blogs today... Though the last one is actually from tuesday I just never got around to posting it. I'm on my itouch because my family is on all the computers.

At the moment I'm Reading about.... 6 books? You could say.

Shadowland by Alison Noël.
Alice in wonderland and philosphy
To kill a mockingbird by Harper Lee
Prom by Laurie Halse Anderson
Fragile Eternity by Melissa Marr
Flowers in the attic by...

I forgot the last one and I'm pretty sure there's two more. How overachiever am I?

Book reviews:

Shadowland is eh. I don't really like the series but I told my friend I would read It so I am. The book to me is just boring and the plot is just extending. So eh.

The philosphy book I pretty cool. I like seeing all the different people interpret things from Alice. Pretty cool.

TKAM is for school. I've only read the first chapter and it's okay. I'm not really sure where it's going but its only been 19 pages. Ha.

Prom is by my favorite author Laurie Halse Anderson. And I just love her stories in general. It's got some parts that don't wow mr but the story and characters itself (themselves?) are pretty interesting.

Melissa Marr is just cool in general and the series (Wicked Lovely) is creative and flowing. Totally recomend it. But start in order, I'm Reading the third book.

(why does my iPod keep capitalizing Reading? Hmmm...)

Flowers in the Attic I haven't really started. Maybe like the first page, and it's okay. Don't know the flow yet so I can't say anything about it.

That's my book reviews for a while.


At the moment my procrastination is bothering me because I should be finishing my english project on the 30's. I can't because people are over. That is a problem. Hense again, I am on my iPod.


Philosphy:
Jam yesterday, jam tomorrow. But never jam to-day.


Alice in wonderland; through the looking glass. Sound familiar?

Well if it doesn't, it is when the White queen tells Alice the policies as the maid.

My question to you, the one Reading, is what does that saying mean?
This one is not philosphy, it's from the alice book, but I think it is a cool concept.

So:
Jam yesterday, jam tomorrow. But never jam tomorrow.


Post a comment.

And all that jazz

I Just Laugh

"Darl'n you're with him.
Damn it's such a shame.
It's driving me insane."

I just laugh
By nevershoutnever.


I figured out what I wanted to do with this blog. I am going to talk about poems or stories I read and/or write. That and I will assumsuate or talk about people's personalities. My gramps was a psycoclogy major and my dad is very good and personalities. I want to know what I'm good at. So I think I'll try this out. Let's see where it goes.

I don't know what this song has to do with anything except the boy problem but eh. Whatever floats my ipod's boat I guess.

To the personalities.

There are eight letters in total.
E or I
S or N
T or F
P or J

E for extrovert
I for introvert
S goes with the flow
N tends to say no
T hides their feelings and has opinions
F is full of feelings and expresses them
P is never on time and everything is late
J is completely neat always

I am a ENTP/ENFP mix. For a girl I don't think that's common. Most girls are F's. And I lean more toward T. Though last week and the blog posts could differ.

So this is the start of my Reading/thought blog. Get ready for it!

And all that jazz.

Forgotten

"Have you forgotten everything that I wanted?
Do you forget it, now you never got it.
Do you get it now?"

Forgotten
by Avril Lavigne

I'm not really sure what to say at the moment. All I know is that I am extremely tired and had the urge to write something. I had strange thoughts today in the car listening to music.

I realized that I was probably manipulated by my bestfriends.
And that well, I just forgot the second thing.

My thoughts are all scrambled.

Manipulation
I think that's a really big accusation. But I sure feel like that's happened to me. Like I was tricked into saying my thoughts only so they could be spread or ridiculed. I dislike this very much. I'm very tired and my thoughts aren't straight. But that's just how I felt earlier today. Like sudden realization.

Barns and Noble makes me happy. I'm talking to my friend on FB who's a Sevy (Seventh Grader. That's what we call them at out school. Well at least all the drama kids. LIKE ME.) and it's making me happy. I tend to say that a lot. But a lot of things make me happy.

And a lot of things make me unhappy.

But at the moment listening to music is very happy-making.

I think I'm going to need to find a point to this blog. Rather then just talking about me. I find that very liberating. But also very concieted at the same point. (And if you haven't noticed yet. I can't spell. Sorry for the incovinience.)

I just lost my train of thought.
And I'm going to find something to actually base this blog on.

And All That Jazz.

Popular

"When I walk into a room people stop and stare it's like nobody else is there.
You know it's me not you,
Who said anything 'bout you?"

Popular
by The Veronicas.

I actually don't have my ipod with me at the moment. It's in my room as I'm in the living room. I just happen to remember what was the last song that was playing. I don't think it fits what mood I'm in, but that's okay. I'm watching "Ghosts of Girlfriends Past." There's nothing else to do at 11:54 pm at night. It's an okay movie.

Today School was actually good. I got cake because it was someone's birthday. And I tried to throw it at boy #1... (To remind you who Boy #1 is. He likes my Twin and it is a huge mess and too much drama to explain at the moment.) And I missed him and hit the leg of the friend that yelled at me yesterday... Well, at least I hit someone...

In gym we played Dodgeball today, and I got hit in the face... But for a very un cordinated person, I can dodge very well.

Lunch today, my friend (She'll be called Blazian) and I sand duets in the MPR. Then Monster, Blazian, Twin, and I went into the MPR backstage and messed around. And we were doing fail cheer moves (well, at least I was) and Twin was actually a cheerleader. So she said "Here, I can do it" and she proceded to kick her leg up in the air when

RIP!

Yes, her jeans rips down the middle. I think that was the highlight of my day. Funniest thing ever.

So Monster and I have to go get her some shorts, and we record the whole adventure. It was pretty sniffy.

Later today we went to the MB Village Mall, (Monster, Me, Twin. No Blazian.). We were supposed to go to Costa to meet friends of my Twin. But there was no point since they would have to leave by the time we got there. So we walked to the Village instead. Went into Sefora (Of which I was decked out as a Purple Ice Queen) and wandered that mall strangely.

I'm really tired, and I can't really have any deep thoughts at the moment... They're pretty "I did this. and Blah blah blah" sorry bout that.

I think I'll say more tomorrow.

And All that Jazz.

Metro

"My mind is in an oily state of screaming sin

And the moment I want to relax is when the sh!t kicks in but

Oh I don't know why,

Oh I don't know why."

Metro

by The Vincent Black Shadow

I feel bad because I think I made my aunt mad. She was telling me my friend makes me change. The she's not "the type of girl" that I should be or hang out with pretty much. I think something horrid happened in my family. I mean really. This is my third post today. Something is wrong.

So I'm just sitting in my room, watching "Who's Line is it Anyways?" My usual Thursday ritual and she comes in telling me this. I couldn't help but get a bit pissed off. She already yelled at me once today for being confused at who to listen to.

See, earlier. I called my mom to ask if I could go to the mall tomorrow because these people from New York (that I REALLY don't like) aren't coming. My other aunt asks if she can use the phone, but I had already hung up. I said sorry, and at the moment my Aunt numero Uno begins to glare and yell at me saying to call my mom again. Of course as fate would have it, my other aunt who actually wanted to talk to my mom said "No, it's fine. I'll talk to her later." So the next five minutes include me being in the middle getting yelled at for no flipping reason as the output of anger from my first aunt. In the end I call my mom again, and then I STILL GET YELLED AT.

What is with that?!

This is before the show I went to watch.

I come back after and my plans for tomorrow are evaluated and checked and whatever from my aunt, uncle and mom. My aunt is just like totally serious when I say I'm going to do weed even though I'm saying it in a joking voice. Everyone else is laughing but her. Then she continues to say "If you do that I'm going beat the hell out of you." or something like that using the word hell in that sense. It was a joke. Can you not take a flipping joke? I'm not going to start rolling!

(Rolling - use extacsy to get high)

Then she comes into my room lecturing me. She continues to say "You don't want people thinking of you as that type of person... As a..." She tries to think of the perfect word as I jump in.

"No one thinks I'm a whore."

She then procedes to say "Don't say that! That is not a good word. I wasn't even think that but now that you bring it up... Don't say that." And the room goes silent and awkward.

"Is that all you have to say?" I ask. She nods yes.

"Well, I would like to get back to my show." I look down at the computer and think of writing. My aunt goes to walk out of the room, and I say "Good night." I have to say it about three times before getting a response.

I dislike getting yelled at multiple times in a day by the same person for no reason. It drives me insane. I'm already having a bad week, I don't need more drama at home.

Drama gives you acne.

And All That Jazz.

I Want You To Want Me

"Oh Didn't I

Didn't I

Didn't I see ya cryin'?

I want you to want me."

I want you to want me

by Cheap Trick

Why does this fit.

Well, it's not really in my position. It's in a guy's position.

The short story is that my friend. My BEST friend who you'll hear a lot about (Twin) she has made this poor poor boy like her. When I mean poor poor boy, I mean stupid boy.

So he asked her out.

And guess what?

She said,

"No."

With the excuse of "Girl Code" which states that if your friend has liked a boy and he likes you instead, you shalt not go out with him.

Yes, sadly I did like this boy.

How horrible. I wish I didn't.

Back to the SHORT version.

The boy did not understand Girl Code and so he went around telling people that it was all my fault.

The second part

Yes, there is a second part,

to why she said no is because she likes this other boy who is a freshman.

We are in 8th grade.

The first boy, the one she said no to, I say is like a Sick Puppy.

He is a sick puppy.

No one wants to kick a sick puppy.

But I was so fed up with all the rumors going around. That after math, I slapped the boy.

It wasn't that hard. I should have made it harder. Oh well!

And now I'm getting yelled at by people because I have feelings about being rumored about. OH MY GOD I HAVE FEELINGS! I don't show them at school, but when I do, oh world watch out.

So the end.

Sort of.

My dear Twin thinks that this isn't about her saying no anymore. It's about the fact that boy #1 is just mad that she didn't say yes. And so he's taking it out on me.

I agree with her.

That is why we are twins.

This week hasn't been so good in total.

But I do not have the time to explain that right now.

Tomorrow I will.

There is more. Don't worry. I feel like I've started a book and just left you hanging.

Which I think I did.

Sorry!

I'm in my drama class and a certain amount of 8th graders get to see the highschool's production of THE WIZ and I'm going at 7:10. I have to shower.

Too much information?

Oh well, life is full of it.

And All That Jazz

Los Angeles

"This city's giving me

I want

I want

I want everything.

This city's giving me

In the heat of Los Angeles"

Jazz + Liquor

Yep that's me. I'm Jazz, and this is going to be my addiction. My new found liquor.

What can I say about myself? Not much actually.

I'm fourteen.

I like to write, sing, act, paint.

I like art in general.

That's all you need to know about me at the moment.

Why is this my liquor?

Well I can tell you, I don't drink. Except for the occasional sip of wine here and there at home. I'm not an alcoholic. Though I could be if I tried. I'm calling this blog Jazz + Liquor because I think it fits.

Plus, it's from my favorite song in Chicago.

But that's another story.

Los Angeles

By Sugarcult.

I have decided in the past five minutes of starting this that I will put my ipod on shuffle or chose the song that is playing to start my blog. This song is Los Angeles. And I think it fits. My ipod has a tendency of reading my mind.

What's this about?

It's about me. It's about my life and what people my age go through at my school. The city of MB. All names disclosed, will not be told. But I will assure you that the experiences are very real.

I think this is a good way to start this. Don't you?

If you said no, sorry, can't help you there.

My next post will start what is going on. Probably posted in the next twenty minutes.

Just a heads up.

I'm going to try to have a healthy blog habit. But no promises.

And All That Jazz